difficult, for some reason

Zero dollar day. A fairly good day in terms of mental health, till I got to the dojo. The dojo was more difficult, for some reason. But not too difficult.

Working on job applications. gonna give that another 1/2 hour right now, at the end of my day. Have to finish this application in the next few days.

I’ve been eating one meal per day lately. I’m super hungry right now. I do need to do something a bit extreme to lose these last 5 pounds.

Texted a recently divorced buddy of mine this morning to see how he was doing. He said, “I’ve lost 50 pounds and am drowning in pussy!” That kinda made me sad, cause I am not “drowning in pussy.” I got over it pretty easily, but those lonely, sad feelings are there. Fuck it. Carry on.