my own internal dynamics

Yesterday was a hard day. Felt good in the morning, then listened to some Iron and Wine while at work, and fell apart. It was like being reminded of love and tenderness, and coming unraveled…

horse-hair shirt

I’m learning to live like a monk. “The horse-hair shirt kind, or the beer and bread kind?” I dunno. Depends on which day you catch me on.

eventually

Bought some groceries and paid for my thyroid meds today. No superfluous cash spent. Hard day. Plagued by intrusive thoughts. Went for a night-time walk in the woods. It was psychoactive and my head wavered…

a windfall, pissed away

So the water in my little village was deemed unsafe for drinking, and the university ran all the students off from like 1/2 a week. This meant I had 3 unplanned days off. And instead…

traffic ticket

Spent 250 today to clear up a traffic ticket. Sucks. Managed to get to karate, despite wanting to eat ice-cream in bed. Applied for like 6 jobs today. Gotta keep hitting that. There are some…

what the hell

Zero dollar day. Last night, I had a lovely female voice/presence occupying my head while I tried to sleep. I got annoyed by it, and pushed away. I was frustrated that such things could go…

in fact, I think I will

Spent 16 bucks on thyroid meds and sundries from the market. Got some thread and needles for my sewing machine. Gonna try that out for the first time this weekend. Fucking lonely. Teaching tomorrow. Dreading…

zero

Zero dollar day. Did some van work. Did half an hour of math. Just that amount makes me feel better. Karate actually made me feel better today. Fucking right.