in fact, I think I will

Spent 16 bucks on thyroid meds and sundries from the market. Got some thread and needles for my sewing machine. Gonna try that out for the first time this weekend. Fucking lonely. Teaching tomorrow. Dreading…

zero

Zero dollar day. Did some van work. Did half an hour of math. Just that amount makes me feel better. Karate actually made me feel better today. Fucking right.

a day

Paid karate dues today, and paid the entrance fee for a tournament next month. Also paid 30$ for a dvd covering the first kata we learn. Other than that, 0 dollars. Karate was the most…

a lovely vacation

Went off the rails a bit over the break. No drinking, but not a lot of work. It was a lovely 3 week vacation that should have been 2 weeks instead. Spent some good time…

walking through the snow

Was about 1/2 way to work today, walking through the snow, when I realized I had left my thermos of tea at home. So I bought a cup at work. Soon I’ll have a tea…

drunk lady noises

Been a while. Bought a Yeti mug and a coil-wire immersion water heater for the office today. Feel a little bad about spending dollars, but it’ll be nice to be able to make tea at…

cute girl

Been doing well the last few days. Smoked some flower last weekend, and it was generally bad. Lots of anxiety, and the compulsive reliving of past trauma. I’m not emotionally stable enough for weed, it…

climbing back on

Fell off the wagon a bit…not drinking but dicking around most evenings last week, and eating out too much. Blew off karate, and didn’t put the work into my tenure-track job application that I should…

difficult, for some reason

Zero dollar day. A fairly good day in terms of mental health, till I got to the dojo. The dojo was more difficult, for some reason. But not too difficult. Working on job applications. gonna…