a fuckload of work

Lots of stuff to talk about. Going to try to start updating daily again. In the think of the Covid-19 pandemic, teaching from home. Teaching from home is, it turns out, a fuckload of work….

entirely self-structured

Been holed up in quarantine lately, given that I’m about 80 miles out of NYC. Been having a bit of trouble making myself work, which is not great. This is a scenario where my time…

pandemic holiday

The covid-19 pandemic has got all in-person classes cancelled for the rest of the semester. So I’m an online instructor now. And they added another week to spring break. So 2 full weeks of vanwork,…

my own internal dynamics

Yesterday was a hard day. Felt good in the morning, then listened to some Iron and Wine while at work, and fell apart. It was like being reminded of love and tenderness, and coming unraveled…

horse-hair shirt

I’m learning to live like a monk. “The horse-hair shirt kind, or the beer and bread kind?” I dunno. Depends on which day you catch me on.

eventually

Bought some groceries and paid for my thyroid meds today. No superfluous cash spent. Hard day. Plagued by intrusive thoughts. Went for a night-time walk in the woods. It was psychoactive and my head wavered…

a windfall, pissed away

So the water in my little village was deemed unsafe for drinking, and the university ran all the students off from like 1/2 a week. This meant I had 3 unplanned days off. And instead…

traffic ticket

Spent 250 today to clear up a traffic ticket. Sucks. Managed to get to karate, despite wanting to eat ice-cream in bed. Applied for like 6 jobs today. Gotta keep hitting that. There are some…

what the hell

Zero dollar day. Last night, I had a lovely female voice/presence occupying my head while I tried to sleep. I got annoyed by it, and pushed away. I was frustrated that such things could go…