fuck private schools

Lost my damn pocket knife, and I’m paying to replace it. I might put the new on a cord and carabiner so I can clip it to my belt. Benchmade knives ain’t cheap. It’s weird…

can’t go trading that hay

Zero dollar day. My watch died, and I’m tempted to buy a crazy Garmin gps watch to replace it, but I can’t afford that. I’m increasingly concerned that I’ll have to walk away from this…

songs to warm your dick by

Zero dollar day. Today was much better. Negative loops were manageable, and I was able to see the sky. Picked back up on meditation today. I think I gotta do that. It brings my after-work…

half-assed

Ugh, this apartment is so drafty. Going to pack the windows with the wool insulation that I’ll be using in the van. No more windows till Winter is over. On Saturday I was out of…

fuck this virus

I tested positive for fucking Covid. After all the work I put in and all the sacrifices I made, it was a bit disheartening. Rationally I know that my efforts could only shift the probabilities,…

low blood-sugar

Today got difficult after a pretty good start. Had to work late…I don’t like when I have to stay on campus after a late lecture. That got me kinda pissy, but it was manageable. Walking…

a lovely way to spend the fall

Yesterday was hard. Manged to play guitar, then half-assed my writing and workout. (“Anything worth doing is worth doing half-assed.”) I was on campus late, and was proctoring exams all day, which is surprisingly stressful….