cute girl

Been doing well the last few days. Smoked some flower last weekend, and it was generally bad. Lots of anxiety, and the compulsive reliving of past trauma. I’m not emotionally stable enough for weed, it…

climbing back on

Fell off the wagon a bit…not drinking but dicking around most evenings last week, and eating out too much. Blew off karate, and didn’t put the work into my tenure-track job application that I should…

difficult, for some reason

Zero dollar day. A fairly good day in terms of mental health, till I got to the dojo. The dojo was more difficult, for some reason. But not too difficult. Working on job applications. gonna…

the current model

Went out to eat lunch at a bar today. Also spent some money doing laundry. Had a nice conversation about Adventure Time with the male bar tender. No ladies for me to talk to there….

despite what the voices tell me

Zero dollar day. Rib is healing nicely. It was a relatively difficult day in terms of mental and emotional health. As is always true of late, it wasn’t anything near as bad as hard days…

i’d fucking love to shift

Haven’t been posting lately. My bad. Got my rib bruised in karate. So that hurts. It’s tolerable, though. Made it worse by smoking a bunch of weed this weekend. Made me cough, and coughing fucking…

gold into garbage

Zero dollar day. Got a check from the uniform cleaning company that backed into my van. So I’ll take the van to the body-shop shortly. Today was a hard day, mental-health wise. As often happens,…

make crypto punk again

Zero dollar day. Got an hour of math done, and cleaned the kitchen. Karate. I like my apartment with the bed lofted. I also like that I can easily walk home from my dojo. No…

not that. not that either.

Had a fairly bad cold, and didn’t want to miss work because another one of our faculty members was missing some days as her father passed away, so people were already double booked. So I…

cute smile

Zero dollar day. I like my karate dojo. All these cute girls that are 1/2 my age keep smiling at me shyly. So that’s good. Got some math done today, but it’s a fucking struggle….